Halfway awake

(Verse 1) Locked doors, cold nights, I learned to hide, Dad chose Julia, left me outside. Three step-siblings, a world I can’t reach, Mom’s sick, pain she can’t teach. Mina curled up, my only peace, Liyan, Melissa, Violetta… my release. But shadows follow, memories sting, Hands raised, I flinch at everything. (Pre‑Chorus) Silent tears, I fight alone, Heartbeats loud, but skin of stone. Every glance, every word, every fight, Feels like I’m balancing wrong and right. (Chorus) Halfway awake, can’t sleep at night, Anton’s brown eyes, burning so bright. Playful fights, teasing, eye-contact war, I laugh, I flinch, I want him more. Too loud in my head, emotions collide, I hide, I move, but he’s by my side. Halfway awake… nothing feels complete, Yet I can’t look away, my heart skips a beat. (Verse 2) He teases, I jump, my heart skips a beat, The classroom glances, our little heat. He notices pain I try to conceal, Nudges my chair, a silent appeal. A mix of fire, care, and play, I’m learning to trust in a little way. But my past is heavy, scars still real, Can love survive what life tried to steal? (Pre‑Chorus 2) Friends laughing outside, I wear a smile, But only Anton sees me all the while. Safe yet scared, drawn yet unsure, Every moment feels like an adventure. (Chorus) Halfway awake, can’t sleep at night, Anton’s brown eyes, burning so bright. Playful fights, teasing, eye-contact war, I laugh, I flinch, I want him more. Too loud in my head, emotions collide, I hide, I move, but he’s by my side. Halfway awake… nothing feels complete, Yet I can’t look away, my heart skips a beat. (Bridge – Rap Flow / Badmómzjay Style) Locked in my head, pain on repeat, Life dealt me hands I didn’t want to meet. Two tries at giving up, I survived, Mina and my girls kept me alive. Anton’s near, he grins, he teases, he stays, Watching my world in mysterious ways. I’m learning trust, I’m learning love, But the night is long, the sky’s above… (Final Chorus – Offenes Ende) Halfway awake, can’t sleep at night, Anton’s brown eyes, burning so bright. Playful fights, teasing, eye-contact war, I laugh, I flinch, I want him more. Too loud in my head, emotions collide, I hide, I move, but he’s by my side. Halfway awake… I don’t know what comes next, Only the dark knows, and my heart beats the rest.