My inner void

(Verse 1) My shirt is ironed, my smile is vinyl, And the clown in the box watches me with guile. I live in a dollhouse, but the paint is ice cold, Beneath this boy's skin, a shadow is untold. Everyone says I'm fine, that I'm strong and a champion, But in my chest beats a wall, not a heart's unison. The TV is still on, with its bright, flashing lights, While my soul sinks lower beneath diamond weights. (Chorus) Oh, my inner void, it's an abyss made of tar. Where my desires drown, right before the war. It's not that I'm sad, it's a cold that consumes me slow, A blackness that grows, ignoring the woe. I am the porcelain boy, shattered under the strain, And the dark void is demanding I bow down in vain. (Verse 2) I bought a new armor, just to keep feeling null, Made of heavy metal, to ignore the soul's pull. My hair is combed neatly, my tie is too straight, But my feet are tied down by a shadowy fate. They force me to make noise and to pose for the photo, But I sense the void in every corner I know... I wonder if I exist, if I’m real or just a mirror, The one who smiles is an actor, my deepest fear. (Bridge - The Awakening and the Fight) But one day, the echo shatters. I hear a voice scream out: "I'm not your prisoner, the hidden key is about!" This blackness isn't mine, it’s a heavy layer imposed. I won't be furniture, this spirit is opposed! I feel myself sinking, the mud grasping my feet, But I stretch my fingers, searching for light, I'll try just this feat! This depression is a monster that wants me to stay quiet, But I'm going to scream back: "You will not fight it!" I want to cast off the armor, though the skin underneath burns... I want to see the Sun again. I want to live how I learn. (Modified Chorus - With a Tone of Struggle) Oh, my inner void, you are no longer the one in charge of me. I'm going to throw out the secrets that made me unhappy. The cold remains, but my fist can already feel its might, And I know if I face it, I will make it through the night. I was the porcelain boy, but I'm slowly repairing now, And to the dark void I'm showing how to take a bow.